Thinking too much

I have been thinking a lot lately (news flash I know right?)

Relationships are never easy and one must always make sure they are in them for the right reasons. People always say things happen the way they do for a reason, and I believe that to be true though that does not necessarily bring you comfort.

One must always remain faithful to the one they love and cherish. One must never give up on love either. You must be willing to fight with fierce determination for what you love or who you love. All I can say for sure on that relationships is to always remain faithful.

If that which you are in is not what you want, then end it but if it brings you joy and happiness do not give up on it. Fight for it.

That is perhaps one of the biggest mistakes that I made, I did not fight hard enough for what I wanted. So many different things could have been said, could have been done. Fact is, I didn't measure up and I paid a hefty price for it. I didn't man up and that is my fault and I have to live with that. Lord knows that I have yet to make the same mistake twice. Hence, should I ever get the chance, a real chance again at what I cherish most, I shall not hesitate to do all that I can to fight for it.

Would I be ready now? Only lord knows. I knew what I had when I had it but I did not know to handle it, I didn't know what to do. Life experiences teach us so many different things. We all learn, each and every day of our lives. If we do not then we are doomed to repeat problems of our past. These can have horrifying repercussions on our future. While some opportunities lost are more than we can bare, we must move on and look to the future. Never know what the future may bring. Perhaps in the future that opportunity may occur again springing new life and thus a second chance on what was done in the past.

I may be a broken record but it becomes ever more clear how strongly our actions have a ripple effect down the road. How one small action can create unforeseen consequences no one could have predicted. Our fate is but what we make for ourselves. The lord our God gave us free will. It is our choice to do as we will.

I look everyday at every juncture for a sign. I am always looking for a sign now. Just as I check my mail, my im, or even my blogger account. Some things take time and I have hence been forced to learn patience among other things.I shall never give up hope, for hope is what we give ourselves in the bleakest of moments. Hope gives us the strength and the courage to move through all things. Along with faith.

The choices are never easy but they are simple. We can choose to remember the past and continue on our road believing we are helpless to our surroundings. We can do this or, we can grab life by the horns. We can accept things for what they are and recognize that some things never change and that some things do.

Along the road we have to decide who to keep in our lives or who we cut loose. When you have a lover or a relationship that means the world to you, you must do anything and everything to protect it. To safe guard it. Because it is what you love most in this world (beside the lord our God of course).

Our fate is what we make. This is what I believe. We can do anything in this world we put our mind to. Many things take time, lord knows I am an impatient guy, thus at this juncture I am forced to sit and twiddle my thumbs because though through action many things can happen. In this case I have to sit back and let certain things come to me. Quite difficult to chase something that forever runs away from you. Though if you really take the time to think about it, we live on a sphere. Perhaps if I wait long enough at some point instead of running away, you will run right back. :)

I hope. Beyond all hope. Beyond all reason. I hope.

-Slevin

P.S: I love you