The Power of Prayer

"I confess to almighty God, and to you my brothers and sisters. That I have sinned through my own fault. In my thoughts and in my words. In what I have done and what I have failed to do. I ask blessed Mary of the virgin, of all the angels and saints, and to you my brothers and sisters to pray for me to the lord our God."

My daydreams are progressively giving me less and less comfort as the days drive on. I am constantly looking for hope in numerous places. Trying to in so many ways to keep my mind occupied.

I find things to be strange as of late. I am anxious than before. The weight of final exams looms over my head and seems to give me greater difficulty than ever before.

Faith, Hope, and Love.

Every so often this phrase pushes through into my mind. Though uncertain as to why it keeps appearing, it does give me comfort at least.

I find that I am unable to come up with distractions for my mind. This is becoming unsettling because never before have I had trouble keeping my mind occupied. Seems as if my mind is becoming more focused on something I have yet to name. I find myself progressively listening than thinking. Staring at one point on the wall or fixating on something else in the distance and losing myself in the moment. Time seems to be slowing down, ever still.

Pain is intermittent and seems to be dissipating. Though the longing is stronger than ever. I also must admit confusion is becoming even more prevalent as well. Though, as soon as my mind asks why, it just as quickly dismisses it, not giving rise to any answers. Perhaps I am coming to terms with the fact that there are things that we can never understand and the mind is adapting, ensuring that this will no longer give me pain.

I find myself having a lust for knowledge and my laziness dissipating. I wish to read so much but I also have a rising fear that what I start to read will clash with what little clarity for the finals that I have left. So I shall wait until after Thursday to read my philosophy books, but I look forward to them.

This moment, this very moment, I am at peace. For how long it will last, I am uncertain, but I shall not take it for granted. Such a calm I have not had in such a long time it is eerie.

I have faith things will work out, the lord has a plan for me...
I hope for things I have no reason to hope for, yet still grant me peace...
I love without knowing how or why...

I am slowly being granted the serenity to accept the things I can not change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

I hope the best for you when times are hard. May you be well and always joyful. I pray for your happiness.

Have no fear. Whether or not you choose to do anything is up to you, know my heart will not let go and never shall. I will love you until the end of the age.

"May the wind be at your back, the sun upon your face, and the wings of destiny carry you aloft to dance with the stars."

~Sleven

P.S. I love you