Not a surprise. I find it interesting how most of the people I know are in some sort of relationship. Kinda makes hanging out with them on a saturday night difficult :-p when they are spending time with their significant other.
Lets see here what did I accomplish today...
wrote in the journal some...
completed all my acct hw and quiz...
successfully harassed my pets...
successfully taught a lesson by those pets... (paybacks a pain...)
played a bunch of games...
interacted in some way shape or form with a human being outside of my family...
I suppose I should be doing some other things for school but I just have no motivation to do them...
Oh well. So many things left unsaid... The chance will never come, thing is do I want it? :) Not at all. Strange how things work out. Back in the day, which was a wednesday by the way, I was in the same position I am now. I wondered to myself what is there to do? This is so boring. Well things quickly became complicated. Though now I am back in relatively the same position I have a greater appreciation for patience. Amusing thought actually. Certainly is nice to sit and relax, especially with someone next to you. Some people absolutely love being alone. I used to be that way and would not have it any other way. Now I just want someone there. I guess I have grown used to the idea of someone being by my side and admittedly is hard to live without.
I am proud of myself though. I am able to watch chick flicks again. For those of you who think chick flicks are stupid here is a piece of advice, those chick flicks often have something within them that is quite redeeming and appeals to a woman's heart or innermost desires. Trick is to figure out what that thingy-mo-bobber is and why.
Though in my honest opinion women are nuts. Good luck every trying to figure them out but I certainly know I would never want to live without one. :)
I find myself listening to a combination of different music. Best I ever had (grey sky morning) by Vertical horizion, I will not bow by breaking benjamin, Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson, and amusingly enough even a country song called Cowboy Casinova which brings a huge smile to my face every time like a giddy school boy and I can not tell you why. :)
Country music does not adversly affect me nearly as much as it used to which is quite a relief considering the madre does not know what the difference between music and a genre of music ;-)
I like the song Come back to me by David Cook as well.
I guess basically I am listening to songs of loss that help the pain of realizing that people go through love and loss, though through that time others have gone through it and have healed, no matter how mad they may be ;-) (p!nk anyone? tee hee) and at the end of the day they find freedom in new love. Love can never truly die, it merely is reborn in the form of new love. I tend to listen a bit of the Goo Goo dolls...
Second Chance by Shinedown is a particular favorite. One thing by finger elven... Paralyzer, particular reader I know of had that as a song for me and makes me laugh.
Happy by leona lewis, bleeding love and better in time...
Another favorite of mine is Again by lenny cravitz.
Though I dont have one, bad Girlfriend brings a smile to my face. Though Not meant to be by theory of a deadman isn't such a happy song... "one step forward and two steps back, no matter what I do your always mad and I, I can change your mind, Maybe we're not meant to be....". Hurt by christina aguilera... for a long time. Long time my friends. "I would hold you in my arms, I would take the pain away, thank you for all you've done, forgive all your mistakes, there is nothing I would rather do , to hear your voice again, sometimes I wanna call you but I know you wont be there, oh sorry for blaming you, for all things I just couldn't do... "
Someday I will find her. My foxy lady.
Right after that heehehe.. Fighter. ;-) booya
Love story by taylor swift. .... Always brings goosebumps to my skin... Such a song I shall never forget. I love the song. Especially of what it means. :) Forever will bring a tear to the eye. :)
All comes back to better in time with leona lewis. :) Its hard to let go of the thing you believed meant everything in the world to you. Realizing that though you may have cared more than anything that it just... was not quite what the good Dude upstairs had in store for you.
In the end by linkin park. "I had to fall to lose it all but in the end it doesn't even matter.. " Hell thats a blog all on its own along with when I'm gone. Never quite had someone that did that. I am sure I will in time.
Top it all off with the sound of madness by shinedown sound of madness, stronger, and new drug. :)
Oh yea I listen to my fair share of music. For anyone impressed I was cycling through itunes while typing this blog. ;-) don't be too impressed hehehe.
I wonder how long this state of mind will last. Not complaining mind you, just curiosity. Then again, how many people will actually read this again besides yours truly? ;-)
Time will tell all things... time will tell
To my future diamond in the rough...
P.S. I love you
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