Replay - Iyaz

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everyday
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay (2x)

Remember the first time we met
You was at the mall wit yo friend
I was scared to approach ya
But then you came closer
Hopin' you would give me a chance

Who would have ever knew
That we would ever be more than friends
We're real worldwide, breakin all the rules
She like a song played again and again

That girl, like somethin off a poster
That girl, is a dime they say
That girl, is a gun to my holster
She's runnin through my mind all day, ay

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everyday
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay (2x)

See you been all around the globe
Not once did you leave my mind
We talk on the phone, from night til the morn
Girl you really change my life
Doin things I never do
I'm in the kitchin cookin things she likes

We're real worldwide, breakin all the rules
Someday I wanna make you my wife
That girl, like somethin off a poster
That girl, is a dime they say
That girl, is the gun to my holster
She's runnin through my mind all day, ay

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everyday
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay (2x)

I can be your melody
A girl that could write you a symphony
The one that could fill your fantasies
So come baby girl let's sing with me
Ay, I can be your melody
A girl that could write you a symphony
The one that could fill your fantasies
So come baby girl let's sing with me

Ay, na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Shawty got me singin
Na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na
Now she got me singin

Shawty's like a melody in my head
That I can't keep out
Got me singin' like
Na na na na everyday
It's like my iPod stuck on replay, replay-ay-ay-ay (2x)

Lenny Kravitz - Again...

I've been searching for you
I heard a cry within my soul
I've never had a yearning quite like this before
Now that you are walking right through my door

All of my life
Where have you been?
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

A sacred gift of heaven
For better, worse, wherever
And I would never let somebody break you down
Nor take your crown, never

All of my life
Where have you been?
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And everytime I've always known
That you were there, upon your throne
A lonely queen without her king
I longed for you, my love forever

All of my life
Where have you been?
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

All of my life
Where have you been?
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

All of my life
Where have you been?
I wonder if I'll ever see you again
And if that day comes
I know we could win
I wonder if I'll ever see you again

Ok yall...

I could really do with a massage. I do not know about you but having sore muscles for extended periods of time is not particularly enjoyable. :=p

Availability...

Anyone out there wanna talk :D I would love to. ANYONE at all :D

Confused.

I am uncertain. I know what I should do and I know what I want to do and then I know what I feel. I feel like I am talking in code again and I do not want to. I want my Holly back but that is hard to find. too many things do not add up and I am looking for something real. Too many signs have appeared that I do not recognize. Feels like the good lord is trying to tell me something but what exactly that is I am quite uncertain.

Thinking of you Holly... Where are you girl?

__

P.S. : I love you

A Knight's Tale

It is strange to think, I haven't seen you since a month. I have seen the new moon, but not you. I have seen sunsets and sunrises, but nothing of your beautiful face. The pieces of my broken heart are so small that they can be passed through the eye of a needle. I miss you like the sun misses the flower; like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to. I next compete in the city of Paris, I will find it empty and in the winter if you are not there. Hope guides me, it is what gets me through the day and especially the night. The hope that after you're gone from my sight, it will not be the last time that I look upon you.

_____

This is one of my favorite things in the movie. I was watching it tonight and thought it would be a good post. :)

Funny Vid - Powerthirst

Bored again... yet more public reflection through music this time...

Not a surprise. I find it interesting how most of the people I know are in some sort of relationship. Kinda makes hanging out with them on a saturday night difficult :-p when they are spending time with their significant other.

Lets see here what did I accomplish today...
wrote in the journal some...
completed all my acct hw and quiz...
successfully harassed my pets...
successfully taught a lesson by those pets... (paybacks a pain...)
played a bunch of games...
interacted in some way shape or form with a human being outside of my family...


I suppose I should be doing some other things for school but I just have no motivation to do them...

Oh well. So many things left unsaid... The chance will never come, thing is do I want it? :) Not at all. Strange how things work out. Back in the day, which was a wednesday by the way, I was in the same position I am now. I wondered to myself what is there to do? This is so boring. Well things quickly became complicated. Though now I am back in relatively the same position I have a greater appreciation for patience. Amusing thought actually. Certainly is nice to sit and relax, especially with someone next to you. Some people absolutely love being alone. I used to be that way and would not have it any other way. Now I just want someone there. I guess I have grown used to the idea of someone being by my side and admittedly is hard to live without.

I am proud of myself though. I am able to watch chick flicks again. For those of you who think chick flicks are stupid here is a piece of advice, those chick flicks often have something within them that is quite redeeming and appeals to a woman's heart or innermost desires. Trick is to figure out what that thingy-mo-bobber is and why.

Though in my honest opinion women are nuts. Good luck every trying to figure them out but I certainly know I would never want to live without one. :)

I find myself listening to a combination of different music. Best I ever had (grey sky morning) by Vertical horizion, I will not bow by breaking benjamin, Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson, and amusingly enough even a country song called Cowboy Casinova which brings a huge smile to my face every time like a giddy school boy and I can not tell you why. :)

Country music does not adversly affect me nearly as much as it used to which is quite a relief considering the madre does not know what the difference between music and a genre of music ;-)

I like the song Come back to me by David Cook as well.

I guess basically I am listening to songs of loss that help the pain of realizing that people go through love and loss, though through that time others have gone through it and have healed, no matter how mad they may be ;-) (p!nk anyone? tee hee) and at the end of the day they find freedom in new love. Love can never truly die, it merely is reborn in the form of new love. I tend to listen a bit of the Goo Goo dolls...

Second Chance by Shinedown is a particular favorite. One thing by finger elven... Paralyzer, particular reader I know of had that as a song for me and makes me laugh.

Happy by leona lewis, bleeding love and better in time...

Another favorite of mine is Again by lenny cravitz.

Though I dont have one, bad Girlfriend brings a smile to my face. Though Not meant to be by theory of a deadman isn't such a happy song... "one step forward and two steps back, no matter what I do your always mad and I, I can change your mind, Maybe we're not meant to be....". Hurt by christina aguilera... for a long time. Long time my friends. "I would hold you in my arms, I would take the pain away, thank you for all you've done, forgive all your mistakes, there is nothing I would rather do , to hear your voice again, sometimes I wanna call you but I know you wont be there, oh sorry for blaming you, for all things I just couldn't do... "

Someday I will find her. My foxy lady.

Right after that heehehe.. Fighter. ;-) booya

Love story by taylor swift. .... Always brings goosebumps to my skin... Such a song I shall never forget. I love the song. Especially of what it means. :) Forever will bring a tear to the eye. :)

All comes back to better in time with leona lewis. :) Its hard to let go of the thing you believed meant everything in the world to you. Realizing that though you may have cared more than anything that it just... was not quite what the good Dude upstairs had in store for you.

In the end by linkin park. "I had to fall to lose it all but in the end it doesn't even matter.. " Hell thats a blog all on its own along with when I'm gone. Never quite had someone that did that. I am sure I will in time.

Top it all off with the sound of madness by shinedown sound of madness, stronger, and new drug. :)

Oh yea I listen to my fair share of music. For anyone impressed I was cycling through itunes while typing this blog. ;-) don't be too impressed hehehe.

I wonder how long this state of mind will last. Not complaining mind you, just curiosity. Then again, how many people will actually read this again besides yours truly? ;-)

Time will tell all things... time will tell

To my future diamond in the rough...

P.S. I love you

Good Morning... Ladies and Gentaaal Maan... I'm back ;-)

I am bored and thus anyone reading this will...well why in the world are you reading it to begin with? O.o You should know that there is nothing but absurdity within the confines of this page! ALAS I am unable to sleep. So I shall irritate anyone who reads this. I have decided that not posting anything on a perfectly good blog no matter what the reason is... well stupid. Its a space that I can use to annoy other people. Isn't that nice? :)

Things are going much better than they were a month ago for me. It is hard to believe that so much stress can be relieved so quickly. Things are normalizing and pretty ladies are starting to swarm. It is such a nice feeling. Pretty soon I will have to start bating them away with a stick. Hopefully not an ugly stick... that would just be distasteful. Though many seem like they have been hit with one. *shudders* I am sure a good match will show up in time... more on that in a few paragraphs... maybe...possibly... who knows? :D

Lemme see here... what can I talk nonsense about. Well currently my cat is sitting on my bed. For some reason he has been hanging around my room frequently as of late. Still whines like a baby though, hence his name.

I am in great anticipation of the holiday season. Not because of the presents for Christmas, but the lovely fact that I can sit on my lazy arse for an entire month and not have a true care in the world. No worries about grades (though I will reward myself if I do as I will in a certain class).

I recently picked up a new type of tea for those of you who do not know, I love tea. Silver Needle (though expensive) is great to have. For some reason when I first had it... I wasn't exactly a fan though now it is one of my favorites. Yay me I suppose.

Ha you got lucky, I am talking about lady friends again. So...

Well I have learned that there are a few people in the last month that I can not trust and some have resurfaced attempting to gain insight to my life which I find interesting considering no one I speak to regularly could supply them with accurate information which leads me to extreme curiosity about why they are inquiring into my private life. After all, they didn't care three months ago, why do they care now? Scratch a lie, find a thief.

I am looking forward to the ability to read during the break. Play my games. Work out, oh my goodness the ability to work out and then do it again, call me nuts but I love that. Hopefully I get my new weights for Christmas, if not, I shall buy them muahahaha. Ha....? No? I thought it was amusing, perhaps not. Maybe its not. Shit. Who the heck are you!

That line is called attitude...

So lady friends... Tee hee, it is rather nice to have a few to talk to on a regular basis that I didn't know a week ago, who knew it was so easy to come by? Though none of these are steady material but it is certainly nice to know what your abilities are especially when you are not accustomed to knowing such intriguing pieces of information.

And my cat keeps staring at me... A bit unnerving actually...

Ah well... Lets see here...

Yea. Bought some new music within the last two weeks. Especially the songs a certain someone told me they were going to help me get but never did. Rawr! I knew I wouldn't get them so can not say I was surprised.

Anyone still reading amuses me, who honestly cares about the ramblings of someone on the web who has nothing better to do with their time?

Oh well, guess for some reason my blog interests you huh? Well then speak to me! Or not that works to. Some people loved to be shrouded in mystery and secrecy. Though these veils they throw up attempt to hide from others what their thoughts actions and desires are, they succeed only in fooling themselves. Believing their treachery could possibly be hidden by the veil of deceitfulness that they have contrived. Though they fail to realize that in time, light illuminates all darkness and their treachery will not go unrewarded.

As someone I once knew said..." I do not need to seek revenge, Karma has worse thigns than I could ever inflict"

Dark maybe but it does give one a sense of justice knowing that in time everyone, in some way shape or form does reap what they sow...

You can lie to everyone in the world. Even yourself and do a superb job convincing those people... though God sees through all things. You can lie to me, you can lie to your family, you can lie to your friends, but you can't lie to Him. Any day of the week I would put my faith in Him. Former friend of mine said "I would rather have a real person back me up in a fight than an invisible being." I find that sentiment saddening, why? Because there are things in this world we can not see or taste or touch. How do you propose you fight an enemy such as that? I would much rather have an invisible "man" on my side because though you can kill me, that "invisible man" provides a life outside of this existence, which is merely a shadowy reflection of what true greatness awaits us all, that is, if we are deemed worthy...

Look at that, silliness to seriousness all in the same post. Seems I am growing out of my rambunctiousness. Oh dear growing older can be such a curse and a blessing all at the same time. To remain forever a 9 year old child needing to know very little of this world, such ignorance is bliss I believe. Makes you wonder why Adam and Eve had to pick that bloody apple eh? We all could have remained ignorant and happy, than be smart and miserable.

Which would you rather be? With wisdom comes great responsibility. Though this can be quite rewarding, it can also be quite painful. I find it amusing that I think, all the time these days. What is, what was, what will be, what have I learned, how can I apply this, do I want to apply this, and so many other things. To be young is such a wonderful and terrible thing, such painful lessons are learned at a young age. Though I suppose this happens young so that when age finally dawns on us, we can accept this wisdom with grace and fortitude knowing that our lives, though forever changed, are also forever enriched through the experiences endured. After all if you have no bad in your life, how can you truly appreciate the greatest beauties and pleasures of this world?

People rarely appreciate things the way they are and always wish for the way things were and by the time they realize that their situation is different now then before it is too late to change what was to what is though what is is here and now and can be changed now thus affecting the future which is why we must always keep our mind on the here and now. For the here and now is where we can enact change and guide the direction of our lives.

I find great peace in knowing that there is someone out there who will love me for me. Already does anything and everything I could ever desire of someone to do and all I have yet to do is find them. The most incredible things can happen in the most innocent of circumstances. No one knows what the future holds save for the Alpha and Omega. I smile and look the future. Even as I type these words I am at peace. Knowing, that this is not the beginning, middle, or the end, for life of a soul has no end. I love more, I feel more, I believe more, more than I ever have before. I have learned so much in such a short period of time no wonder my mind has difficulty processing such vast amounts of information in such small quantities of time.

Anyone still reading, I hope that one day you have the courage to speak to me about such things that I have learned. It would give me great pleasure to speak about what I have learned and impart, hopefully, some wisdom within you.

The path, spans for ages across times and generations. Though right here and right now, it is my turn, my path that I walk. The Hand has given me the ability and when things become to great again the Hand assists me even through times I have yet to realize.

Always remember that there is, indeed, for all time, someone looking out for you. He is always there, though you may not be able to listen in ways we speak to one another, he can speak to you. All you have to do is listen to His language. Appreciate what things are around you.

Always keep
Faith
Hope
&
Love

Think with these, and you can never go down the wrong path.