Changing times...

I find myself in this type of mood more often as time goes on. I currently have a feeling I can not explain but I know something is going on. It is not necessarily a bad feeling though to me it is bad because I do not know what it is.

It is amazing how fast things can change. Just three months ago my entire world seems to be changing, some things for the better some things for the worse. That is the way life goes though.

I recently got back from a trip to Arizona that I needed. I had my moments and overall the trip was good. The trip just reminded me of how things can change so suddenly and so drastically. So many memories, plans that are made can be drastically altered in the blink of an eye.

Such quick change is unsettling though happens all the time. I am just not used to such drastic changes. I am always looking at things in a new light it seems now. I can not explain it but everything seems different. When that happens you begin to realize that nothing really has changed, but at the end of the day you realized what has changed is you. Our outlooks are always changing on life given the new experiences we have every moment of everyday. Things are never the same for when we look at something the first time or the second, etc.

I am a more wizened individual than I was only three months ago and have learned quite a bit. Many lessons as of late I have learned the hard way. Especially after talking with a few friends I have come to realize keeping the past in the past can be difficult, especially if you have an abundant amount of time on your hands and an unfocused mind.

Things do not always work out the way we intend them to but there is always something to be learned that we could never dream of on our own. We must always follow the omens that have been laid out for us. They are difficult to follow and are often painful if we avoid them. Lord knows I have missed my fair share and paid the price for them.

I guess I have become extremely nostalgic as of late. Simple things in life always turn out to be the most extraordinary. People often miss what is right in front of their nose, or in my case who was around my arm.

To those I miss... I love you. And to those still here, thank you for being here, I love you too.

~Sleven